Emotional Video Diary: Peta Murgatroyd Opens Up About Her Pregnancy Journey and Reflection on Miscarriages

Peta Murgatroyd is opening up about her past miscarriages. The 36-year-old dancer, who is currently pregnant with her second child, released a touching video on Instagram in which she showed photos and clips from the last few years in which she had three separate miscarriages. Murgatroyd and her husband, Maksim Charmkovsky, are already parents to a 6-year-old son, Shai.

The video begins in October 2020, and Murgatroyd explains, "We found out we were pregnant at DWTS. We were very excited about our new chapter. I didn't tell anyone, not even my closest girlfriends, that I was pregnant."

But the joy was short-lived, and Murgatroyd began to feel anxious and sick to her stomach." The next day, she miscarried alone in the bathroom of a Whole Foods in the Valley," she said.

For the next four months, Murgatroyd had an "incredibly painful" time.

"I was obviously not okay," she admitted." But to cheer me up, we all went to the park. I even went back to work. I never showed any pain."

Nine months later, "tears of joy" flowed when Murgatroyd found out she was pregnant again. This time, however, she suffered a "second miscarriage.

"This time," she said, "Maks was on tour, and it was hard to be alone again." . I felt for Maks as well. He was under incredible stress and trying to cope with another loss. I gave myself 24 hours to grieve this time. And I had to get back into my life so I wouldn't feel as depressed as I did last time."

Two months later, Murgatroyd followed her husband "halfway around the world to catch a fertility window." When she returned to Los Angeles, Murgatroyd felt "incredibly sick" and "had no idea" that she was "pregnant with severe COVID symptoms."

"I spent nine days at home with Shai with COVID. It was the worst time of my life. I felt like I was slowly dying," she says." The moment her breathing worsened, she called 911. I had no choice. I couldn't take care of Shai any longer."

Shortly thereafter, Murgatroyd had her third miscarriage.

The doctors told me that my body had to choose between fighting COVID or continuing to raise the baby, and I chose COVID," she says. But I remember thinking, 'Why me again? I remember thinking, "Why does God keep getting me pregnant and I can't continue?

Two and a half years later, Murgatroyd and Charmkovsky are expecting their second child, a boy.

"The joy we are experiencing is otherworldly," she said." I never thought we would be here. I thank God every day. It was all worth it."

In the caption of the video, Murgatroyd reflects on what has been a "long road" for the family.

He adds, "Every day for two and a half years we prayed for a miracle to happen. I was reluctant to share this video (I omitted some of it), but then I realized that this is my journey... Not a pretty journey... It is my journey," she writes." I am a changed woman and a better woman because of these events."

Now, Murgatroyd is "happy and content" and "doesn't take things for granted."

"I never thought this day would come at 39 weeks," she admits." I got pregnant with my second because I was hooked, and I knew I needed it for my soul." To be complete and whole. What I needed to realize and accept was the fact that I was complete and had a beautiful, healthy family that loved me and I couldn't see it. It killed my soul, but once I released the fear that I could only have one child, I got pregnant a month later."

"I still look down and think HOW." Murgatroyd continued." How did I get pregnant naturally a month after IVF? It's only about a week away and I'm forever grateful."

Murgatroyd continued her post, calling Chmerkovskiy "the best man I could ever want to be with" and telling him, "Thank you for being there for me and riding this crazy wave of sadness and joy. You are and always will be my greatest support and my best friend."

And to his "beloved" son, Murgatroyd wrote, "You have been my light and greatest joy through all of this. Coming home with bad news has lifted my spirits and made me want to be a better mother to you. And when your brother is born, it is my greatest dream to see you holding him and looking into his eyes. "

Chmerkovskiy wrote in the comments section of his wife's post, "I love you so much and thank you everyday for a perfect little family. I am only happy as long as and when you are happy. Thank you for being such a wonderful role model for us. I can't wait to meet our little man."

When the media spoke with the couple earlier this year, they shared how they told Shai they were expecting a sibling.

"We actually told (Shai) in the bathroom," Murgatroyd recalled with a laugh. He looked at my belly and said, "Mom, there's a baby in there," and I said, "There actually is." He was so excited, just jumping up and down .